---------- Forwarded message ---------- From: Northrup, Robert <Robert.Northrup@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx> Date: Jan 30, 2006 4:58 PM Subject: RE: i am getting cheerleader thoughts To: Melinda Smith <melsbasketcase@xxxxxxxxx> Asshole, everyone gets psychotic after missing enough sleep. Don't try to diagnose yourself in the middle of skipping your meds and stressing yourself with sleep deprivation. NO ONE WANTS TO HEAR ABOUT IT when the cause of your immediate problem is so obvious. -----Original Message----- From: Melinda Smith [mailto:melsbasketcase@xxxxxxxxx] Sent: Monday, January 30, 2006 4:57 PM To: catpft group; Northrup, Robert; new pacifica Subject: i am getting cheerleader thoughts I was reading some page and a thought popped up of someone saying, "God you are introverted!" So I was not sure of the meaning of that word. I glanced at material talking about intuitive introverts. I think if anything I am an extroverted narcissist. Then Otie shot in my head saying, "What drives you?" This is where I get big ideas like I am supposed to get a job. And they will all help me to get a dream job. I have not slept in 24 hours. Maybe I have been misdiagnosed this entire time and what I have now is mania. Mania that goes into psychosis. Because the initial diagnosis was schizoaffective disorder. As far as I have read bipolar people have less severe psychosis than people in the schizo family. Or I could be mistaken. This might explain things. On one of my mental health groups a guy wrote in accusing us of not really being schizophrenic. Instead we have metaphysical thoughts. He said we do schizophrenics a disservice by calling ourselves that. Isn't that fucking cheesy that I thought, "What drives you?" It must be myself. Me, me, me. Talk about myself all day. This might explain things. I just read that sentence again and got the feeling I did not write it. Someone put it there. What is really happening is I should have said, "That might explain things." My feet stink real bad. It is too late to take a bath. I am afraid I will fall asleep in the tub. My feet usually don't stink. My hands stink because I rubbed my feet. -- Melinda Smith =^..^= http://angelfire.com/zine/melsbasketcase -- Melinda Smith =^..^= http://angelfire.com/zine/melsbasketcase New Pacifica Working Group http://www.egroups.com/group/NewPacifica 'Save Our Stations!' Yahoo! Groups Links <*> To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/NewPacifica/ <*> To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: NewPacifica-unsubscribe@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx <*> Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/